UGHHHHHH!

Okay so im reallllllly tired today for the, ummmm, 20th day in a row!!! Why you ask? Well for the past month ever since we moved into our new house, we have been bugging and bugging our builder to grade our backyard so that we could lay sod. There is a sewer drainage thingy in the back of our yard that is completely CLOGGED with mud and everytime it rains it gets worse. Well now you cant even see the damn thing so that water that comes when it rains sits in a huge puddle, we pretty much have a BIG pond/swamp in our back yard. Okay so why is that keeping me awake? There are tonnnnnns of frogs doing their little croaking/mating thing ALL night long!! I know it doesnt sound bad but its right outside of our bedroom! I cant take another night! We have given this man (the builder) plenty of oppotunities to get this done, and now ive had it. Our neighbor said since its the sewer thats clogged up and causing all of this we can call the county, and that will get this builder in some trouble (which he wouldnt really care about) but the best part is he could get fined... which is where it matters most to him!! He's all about the money so i cant wait to get the phone number and start calling! Okay enough of that rant!

Im so excited i LOVE scrapbooking, and recently found out about digital scrapbooking. So I went online yesterday and got photoshop elements 6.0 (a photo editing program) and im gonna start it as soon as i get it in the mail!! Whoo hoo! Something to do while Jason plays x-box! lol

This Sunday my sister will be 16 weeks pregnant! WOW time is freaking flying... I wish it was me though......

New car!!

I got my Infiniti G35 at the end of last week! It was a LONG drive, and Jason is amazing for doing it with me poor guy was sooooo tired but he wanted to do it for me. We both ended up taking the next day off because we left at 3:30 pm on Wednesday and didnt get home until 3:30am on Thursday! It was really nice to have the day off and spend it together! :) Here's my car!!!!!



So, on Friday me and my sister went shopping for maternity clothes for her. She is 15 weeks and she is REALLY showing its weird I didnt think she would show so soon but she really is. I think she's having a girl her stomach is soooo high!! Her "big" appointment isnt until August 4th!!! She'll be 21 weeks! I dont know how the heck she can wait so long i would want to know asap, her dr. is booked but I would go somewhere else just to find out the sex!

I cant wait to be pregnant, and have a baby. I *HOPE* it happens before the end of the year. Im off of birth control now!!! Not to start trying or anything but because it was majorly affecting my hormones and everything i hated being on it. So at least my body will hopefully be ready to start trying by the end of the year also!! :) Oh, Jason and I tried using condoms and we both HATE it so we need to figure out what to do as far as a contraceptive!?!?! He wont use anything unless its proven like 99.9% effective!! UGH!

Stress to the 3rd degree....

Okay so I finally sold my car yesterday!! Whooooo hoooo! That means i can get a bmw or infiniti g35 now! I am sooooo excited, but i have so much calling/faxing/emailing/getting stuff straightened out to do today :( I still have a loan on my car for like $10,000 but they are buying it for more than that. So do I have them give me ONE cashiers check made out to me? Or do i have them make one out to the bank for the payoff amount, and one to me for anything over that?? Ugh... stress. This is the kind of stuff that makes my blood pressure high! LOL No really its really high last time we checked it was 155/94 WHOA!! Thats like major! And this is a good time to get into how much anxiety i have. I mean seriously who FREAKS out like me? If you've ever met me you know exactly what im talking about, it sucks and i hate it. Me and Jason were talking last night about the FAM, and he was actually starting to understand and get it. He used to think girls were fertile ALL DAY EVERYDAY! lol he's retarted. I went to get a new tattoo yesterday and the tattoo man ruined it for me :( He said what i want wont fit on my wrist were I want it. BOOOO! I have been wanting that tattoo for a year and a half now, and that quickly the idea is out the door!!!!!!!!! ahhhh

Here we go...

Ive decided to start a blog to get out all of my feelings and thoughts. I dont even know where to start so im just going to put together some random things about me to start with!!

Im 21 (ill be 22 July 14th!!). I am so happily in a relationship with Jason. My sister is pregnant and im still holding a grudge against her for it, i wish i wasnt but i just am. Jason's sister is also pregnant and due 2 days after my sister. Jason and I built a brand new house and just moved in on May 9th and it is AMAZING! I want a baby...BAD!! I want a boy then 2 girls. I've been working 40-45 hours a week since i was 17 and im getting irritated/tired with it already. Jason is an electrician and pursuing his masters degree as an electrician so that i can be job-less (LOL). I have 10 piercings and 1 tattoo. I wish i would have never gotten the tattoo my mother let me get it when i was 14... and let me just tell you, you do not like the same things at 14 as you do at 21. I dont really have a relationship with my mother or father and im sure ill get into more of that later. I have 1 sister (20) twin brothers (11) and 2 step sisters (18,15) and a step brother (10). I have 2 dogs... Jake and Molly. I am TOTALLY obsessed with JM (if you dont know what that means dont ask... my JM girls know). I drink wayyyy to much mountain dew. I have trust issues (again relates back to my mom and dad im sure). I have anger issues (my dad's fault). I try to live my life as happily as i can because i know I have overcome alot of things that other people have NO idea about, and my childhood was less than HORRIBLE. If you would like some examples just ask, you would be shocked.

I guess this is all i will tell you about me for now... gotta get back to my 9-5'er! LOL